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A Crisis of Faith
How do we respond when we serve in a spiritual leadership position and face a crisis of faith?


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During trials of seemingly unanswered prayer and unrelenting circumstances, we are shaken to the core. This can become so severe that we wonder if we've been betrayed by God himself. We reason that we are doing our best to fulfill our commitment to Christ, but it doesn't seem that he is pulling for us, but instead against us. Unanswered questions nag at our hearts: Is God really who he says he is? Can God do what he says he can do?

For years we have taught others that God is good, loving, and faithful. Now we wonder if it is really true. Besides our inner struggle we realize there are people who look to us as an example during these hardships.

I became fed up and very angry when I faced my own crisis of faith. A profound sense of abandonment settled over me. My prayers seemed distant and hollow. I didn't know what to do or how to how to respond.

My faith and my ministry were at a crossroads. I thought through my options. I could abandon my own faith, become a hypocrite, or work through this with the Lord. Option one would destroy my family. Option two went against my nature. I chose to pursue option three.

As long as I could remember, my relationship with the Lord meant everything to me. I couldn't bear to lose it. So I shared my struggle with my closest friends and family and solicited their prayers.

Scripture says to wait expectantly on the Lord. Day after day I did just that as I sat quietly in the early morning with my Bible open to Job and Psalms. I read Scripture and prayed honest, struggling prayers. I was desperate to hear some direction and assurance from God. More than a response to my unanswered prayer, I needed to reconnect deeply with him.

The more I read the Bible, the more I was confronted with my own pride. I was demanding that God answer my prayers in ways that I deemed best based on my limited understanding. One verse that really stuck with me was Isaiah 7:9: "If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all." I prayed, "Lord, I believe. Please help my unbelief."

Scripture helped me see faith through God's viewpoint. It opened my eyes to see that our faith is very important to God. Phrases such as "your faith which is of greater worth than gold," "without faith it is impossible to please God," and "when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?" haunted me. One morning I sensed the Holy Spirit whisper to my heart. "I am God. Trust Me." I finally yielded my painful circumstance and my life anew to God's plan and his glory. I began to see God's grace as he tested my faith to strengthen it.

Life can be intensely difficult. At times trials can seem unbearable. I still live with the same circumstances that tested my faith many years ago. Yet God continues to show himself faithful to me and my family. He reminds me that my life is not my own, that there is a plan beyond what I can see, and that my faith means more to God than I can imagine.

Sherryl Stone is actively involved in ministry at Ginger Creek Community Church in Aurora, Illinois, where her husband is senior pastor. She holds a bachelor's degree in Bible from Mississippi College and a master's degree in religious education from Southwestern Seminary in Texas. This article first appeared at GiftedforLeadership.com on October 9, 2007.


Topics:Anger, Bitterness, Crisis, Grief, Growth, Peace, Stress
Filters:Counseling, Pastor, Pastoral care, Spiritual director, Woman leader, Women's ministry
References:Isaiah 7:9


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BILLY HAHN

November 21, 2013  9:11am

We must always be honest but we don't all share what we believe. We live in a fallen world and we do not get what we wanr but praise God that he gets us through it in his way. being a christian doesn't give us a free ride. Just read your Bible and see what the disciples and others went trough. We need articles that protray the real world. Thank you for this one.

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RB on a Journey

December 05, 2008  2:32pm

I am hesitant to be critical of this article because Mrs. Stone has taken an incredible step in admitting to the public that she has struggled with her faith. Yet, in this article, her response to doubt displays one of the great weaknesses of leadership in the American church. Our environment expects leaders to be super-humans. I am waiting on the description of a leader who recognized their faith journey as an opportunity to become an open model of living out faith. I am thankful for encouraging testimonies such as this one, but in articles on leadership we need a narratives about people who allowed God to use their personal crisis to build a team of second tier leaders in the church who committed to working through trials of faith together, passing on a vibrant and day to day walk with God as a leadership team. To do that is risky, but then aren't we asking our congregation to risk their jobs every day by living an evangelistic lifestyle in the work place?

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